So this is going to be a spewing post...sorry. I read a blog today and boy did it resignate with me. Ever feel like you are failing at everything? Uhh hello... that's me. I never really used to have those feelings until I became a mother. That's when I had TIME. Oh time... where did you go? I feel like I was on top of the game back then. Not so much anymore. I feel like I can't be as good of a friend, as good of a wife, as good of a daughter, as good of a sister, as good of a granddaughter, as good of an aunt, as good of a cousin, as good of an employee, etc.. etc... Man - mommyhood sure does come with some guilt, eh? Slap on being a working mom on top of it all and you have a big ole' heap of ugliness. Now... don't get me wrong here - I LOVE being a mom more than anything in the entire world. But, I have the guilt of everything else that isn't at the top of the list anymore. Is my grandma doing ok? Is she sad because I haven't called or stopped by in awhile? Do my nieces wonder where cool aunt dawny went and why I don't spend as much time with them anymore? I used to be the friend who didn't miss a birthday or a special day.... hmmm... can't say that anymore. So... reading that blog today at least made me realize that I'm not alone. I think everyone feels like that to some extent - right? And why do I keep comparing myself to the person I was before Jaxson came??? I'm NOT that person anymore. I CAN'T be that person anymore. So... my question to you... how do you make that guilt go away? Man is it consuming... help....
Happy Wednesday Friends.
P.S. my little puppy is going to be 2 on Friday! :)
Hi there! Thanks for stopping by my blog. My name is Dawn and I've been married to Tim for 8 years. We brought our son home from Ethiopia in April '09 and are cRaZy in love with him. If you want to see a ridiculously adorable little boy - then you've come to the right place!